Hey y'all!

I realized that maybe I should go back a bit for those of you who are just joining me on this journey.

Baron and I found out we were pregnant (by surprise) in March of 2005. We lost our first baby several weeks later just around 8 weeks. The baby had died around 6 weeks. It was devastating, but we coped, realized it wasn't a great time, but were still sad. very sad.

fast forward a year and some months, things were looking much better, we had just paid off all of our debt and we got pregnant again. This time I only made it to about 4.5 weeks. I had JUST found out I was pregnant, and then I lost that baby too.

Now after we lost our second, we realized that there might be a problem. It is relatively common (as 15-25% of ALL pregnancies end in miscarriage) for a first to be lost, sometimes even before a woman even knows she's pregnant, but when it comes to two miscarriages, that's when you start to wonder.
I went to my doctor and she started running tests for me, but everything was coming in just fine. I should also define infertile for those of you who are unsure. It is the inability to get pregnant after a year of unprotected sex, or the inability to carry a pregnancy to term. Now, I was just seeing my ob/gyn for this, sometimes an RE (reproductive endocrinologist) will think differently, because they are trained to be more thorough. Anyway, She's a fertility "specialist" so she's had some experience treating it, not just your run of the mill doc.
Her diagnosis was recurrent pregnancy loss, and "unexplained fertility", I am one of the 10% of all infertile people that they don't know why is infertile. There is apparently nothing wrong with me. nice. so this is all in my head?
She said "I don't see any reason why you shouldn't be able to get pregnant and stay pregnant on your own."

Alright. She says, come back in 3 months if you aren't pregnant by then, we'll run the last of the tests.

SOOO, 2 months later, I find myself pregnant again, and again, lost the baby before I could even get to the doctor.

I have since had more tests run, a surgery, and bloodwork galore.. and still nothing. everything is in perfect working order, I have great egg quality and my uterus is picture perfect. But I still can't finish a pregnancy.

So, that's where we are now.
no more infertility tests, no more poking and prodding, no more heartache.
We have a light at the end of the tunnel, we are adopting. We are following a call, filling a need.
-Megs