thoughts

It has been brought to my attention that all my updates lean more toward the negative.

Just wanted to point out that this is a foster/adoption blog, here to make clear for those who are going through the same things, that this is not an easy road, but they are not alone. This is not a "brag about how perfect my children are" blog. They are perfect for me, but we still have our problems to sort through. After all, my children have been abused.

If I came on here, gloating about my children every day, and saying that life around here is perfect, I would be a liar.

Baron and I knew, going into this, that it would not be an easy road. That we would not be able to "save" or "fix" these children.
That it was only our job to make things better for them, and if that means that I'm exhausted, then so be it.

To assume that we are in this to "save" the children is incredibly offensive. I am not Angelina Jolie. I am Megan Eidson. Called to parent by the Great Creator. I am in this to love them, and to fulfill a need in my heart too. I have selfish motives too. I like to parent. I like to be exhausted because I've been dealing with rowdy children all day. I like it. I have wanted this very thing for MANY years now. We are not a normal family, and that's ok with me. Raising children who have been abused is probably one of the hardest things there is to do. I love to sit down at the end of a HARD day and realize that my life feels more fulfilled than it ever has, and that my children are improving because of the work that I've done all day. No, I won't be able to save them. That is Christ's job. But it is my job to know, and make known the will and heart of God. And that is that I adopt children, love them, and pray hard that they grow up to know Him too. My job is simply to parent them, and love them with the love Christ has shown me.


-Megan